Resignation. Not always a bad thing.

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So you may have noticed I’ve been absent for a few weeks. I was out in Joshua Tree, CA continuing my Shamanic studies. It’s really an amazing practice and the study of it can be mind blowing…and it’s also completely, excruciatingly exhausting. Add to that that I was taking three classes in a row for a total of 11 days. And, these were what they call the “Mastery” classes, so they were extra ‘heady’ if you will. Needless to say, I hit the wall. More than once. More than once I said to myself (or anyone who would listen), “I’m done. I can’t put any more information in to my head! I need to freakin’ sleep!” But there really wasn’t much of that going on. I mean sleep.

So each morning students were offered ‘Breathing Practice.” (There are certain breathing techniques in this medicine as in the Yogic tradition, that really help you prepare for a session…or whatever else is coming your way.) One morning, after a particularly bad day, I was totally intending to go to breathing. At that point I figured I needed all the help I could get. So I walk out my cottage door and am instantly pulled to the right where I see the beautiful sun having just come up and 2 chairs sitting facing this sun and the barren but somehow beautiful desert below it. I instantly knew that I wasn’t supposed to go to breathing but was supposed to do my own meditation right there. And when I did, I got the clearest sign I’ve ever gotten. It was simply the word…

Resignation.

But it wasn’t the negative context of that word. Instead, it was the very freeing, peaceful meaning of that word. In other words, it was telling me to just let go. Let go of trying to control this experience. Let go of trying to fit these 11 days in to any semblance of normalcy. Let go of trying to insist your body needs rest. Let go of trying to make the teachers give you the information you think you need as opposed to the information you actually need. Let go of your normal behaviors, thoughts, and patterns of action and just see what happens.

So I did. I let go of being the usual me. And I sat back to see who showed up. And the thing is? I kind of liked who did.

Resignation. It’s not always a bad thing.

In Munay….

You are responsible for your own life.

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You are responsible for your own life. It’s the truth. No matter how hard you want to believe that there’s someone else out there pulling the strings. No matter how hard you want to listen to the media, or your FB friends telling you that some company or politician or governmental agency is the reason you’re in the place you’re in…it’s not true. You are responsible for the life you are currently leading. Good or bad.

Now I know that probably makes some of you feel uneasy. Because now, the only one you can blame for the situation you find yourself in, is you. If you’re in a crappy job, making crappy money, living in a crappy house, with a crappy spouse (little Dr. Seuss there)…it’s your own fault. You have created the life you are living. But, instead of feeling uneasy about that, can you just for a moment consider what that means? Because you are responsible for your own life, that means…

You can do whatever you want with it.

Now how do you feel? My guess is, IF you grasped the awesomeness of that statement, you’re feeling a bit excited.

The problem is, most don’t grasp the awesomeness. Most listen to the media and their FB friends and believe that the government, or big pharma, or large corporations, or rich people are all dictating how their life is going to go, and are all trying to hold them down. In other words, most people are spending all their time and energy focusing on the things that they feel are preventing them from being happy or succeeding. Most are fighting against what they don’t want (we’ve talked about this before…). AND,

they’re waiting for someone to come make it better.

My question then is, how’s that working out for you?

The only person that can make your life better is you. How, you ask? You choose. You stand up and choose for yourself. You let go of thinking someone else is responsible for making you happy. You choose to live a prosperous life. You choose to live in a wonderful house. You choose to follow the governments or companies you believe in. You choose to find something good in everything you see. You choose to love as much as possible. You choose to be kind. You choose to be joyful.

You choose to be responsible for your own life.

In Munay….